I have had a number of conversation lately on the topic of handling ambiguity. While going through some old computer files at home this afternoon, I came across a post from my old personal blog that I thought fit the subject. Most of it is just plain fun for newly expectant parents, but if you pay attention to the shifts between phases, you’ll notice that the shifts are subtle. If you think about how these shifts manifest in conversation, you might even agree that they rarely clear, bright demarcation lines; instead, they represent small yet important shifts along a continuum. When I talk about handling ambiguity at work, obviously the situations are different, but the concept remains the same. Ambiguity is often about spotting subtle, significant slides along a continuum.
If you or your friends are thinking of having kids anytime soon, you’ll get a kick out of this post. If you have kids, this will be a fun little throwback to a time of uncertainty and innocence. And if you are in the habit of extrapolating lessons from your personal life to your working life, you may also get a little something more out of it, too…
It’s a post entitled: The 5 Stages of Getting Pregnant and it has to do with the process a couple goes through when deciding when to have that first kid… here it is again:
There are countless types of pregnancies. Some have an asymptomatic, barely-register-a-blip-in-the-belly experience, while others tend more towards the and holy-shit-we-need-to-reframe-the-door side of things. There are the I-felt-great-for-the-first-trimester-and-then-pulled-a-Rip-Van-Winkle-for-six-months women and their I-was-out-running-my-daily-nine-miler-when-my-water-broke counterparts. I have seen women who lose their taste for everything except French fries, and others whose cravings for all their favorite dishes intensify; I don’t think I’ll ever forget that one dinner where my friend’s wife was almost in tears, begging please, please, could she—please!—just have one little, tiny sip of wine… she ultimately sated herself by running her fingers through the shallow ring of Merlot I left on the paper-covered table and licking them.
Whatever the pregnancy, however the pregnancy, only the goal is the same: deliver that baby!
To couples who go through it, there is no such thing as “carrying well” or “carrying poorly.” “Carrying well” is a phrase coined to sell overpriced maternity clothes. “Carrying poorly” is a phrase coined to sell more Star magazines. Guys especially care about neither, so we are free to view pregnancy as the binary event that it is: you either are or you are not. Guys are simple creatures, really. We really just want a happy, healthy kid. Believe me, ladies, no matter how shallow the man, the one thing that overrides his desire for a hot, prego babe of a wife is the fear that some eating-disorder-related complication might impact his wife or his kid and rob him of sex for an even longer period of time.
Before we can really understand what a first pregnancy is all about, it helps to have some perspective. There is a lot of work that goes into getting to this point—planning, thinking, worrying, arguing, general thising and thating—and to understand the mind of the expectant couple, one must understand the process the couple went through to get there. Fortunately, getting to the point of pregnancy is more or less the same for everyone. There are five stages to the process:
STAGE 1 - Permanent 5 Year Plan
Let’s say it’s 2005 (which it is). You ask your friends what the what is. The Stage 1 response is: “Maybe we’ll have kids in about 5 years. We want to enjoy our marriage first.”
Now let’s fast forward to 2006. No, make it 2007. Two full years have gone by, and the issue of kids comes up again. You didn’t bring it up this time, because you are tactful and know that would be rude to ask point-blank, but you did have a hand in steering the conversation this way. (You are so smooth how you do that!) Your friends ask the question of themselves aloud: “What are we thinking in terms of having kids?” They are still Stage 1, and you know because, as they pretend to work through the issue in front of you, you hear exactly the same phrase as years earlier: “Maybe we’ll have kids in about 5 years. We want to enjoy our marriage first.”
The winning conversationalist that you are, you push them ever so gently on the fact that they were planning to have kids in five years two years ago. You are testing their Stage 1’ness.
If they look you back right in the eye, and in total earnestness they say, “Yeah, but those first couple of years didn’t really count,” then they are still Stage 1, through and through. Stage 1’ers have no intention of having kids anytime soon. They talk about pregnancy like they would talk about a movie or buying a car or a condo, or changing jobs or what the hot new restaurant is; at a certain stage of life, it is “appropriate” conversation. All we know about the Stage 1 couple is that the issue of family has come up privately between them, they both indicated that they would “one day” like to have a family, and the conversation then quickly changed to what DVD to rent that night. There’s nothing more to it.
STAGE 2 - Cracks in the Master Plan
A Stage 2 couple responds wholly differently. Self-awareness has crept in and they accept the inevitable, that this is not just conversation anymore. Having kids and moving to the ‘burbs and getting the minivan are still “out there,” but somewhere along the way, maybe when the Stage 2 couple was driving by a house in the suburbs recently (on the way to visit her parents, perhaps) out of the corner of their eyes they saw a dad washing his car on his driveway, his young kids helping him and his wife playfully directing the scene from a folding chair on the lawn. And that’s when your friends, through some remarkable, primal process that no one quite understands, took unconscious stock of some facts. For instance, that the second car in this family’s garage was the same 535 VW Civic Escape they themselves were driving in. And that the dad was wearing the same Banana Republic shirt as… and hold on, that’s my same pair of Rollerblades hanging up there on the garage wall, above that Trek 800 that’s just like mine, too. Hang on here, your friends’ reptilian brains said to them, they look just like us!
At this stage, the official, master plan still puts kids out there on yonder horizon, but cracks are appearing. Just like iron rusts when exposed to water, prolonged exposure to reality causes master plans to grow brittle and crumble. Who knew! But that’s what it is. Little seeds of reality, carried on the voices of parents, friends, media, and random other advice-givers have taken hold in those cracks and are spawning roots, driving the cracks deeper and deeper… The Stage 2 couple is quickly coming to grips with the idea of actually wanting kids.
Recall your well-posited observation from earlier about the missing two years. Posed to a Stage 2 couple, the same comment is now met with: “Yeah, we know, and if it happens sooner that’s fine. I mean, ideally we’d like to wait a few more years before we start trying, but if we got pregnant tomorrow we’d like, you know, deal.” The Stage 2 couple cannot even get themselves to reaffirm the myth of the 5 Year Plan when challenged.
STAGE 3 - Master Plan, Meet Master Window
The shift from Stage 2 to Stage 3 is subtle but significant. Look at these two statements and you can see what I mean. The first one is from a Stage 2 type comment from a husband; the latter is from Stage 3:
Stage 2 Husband: “Look, she needs to work another… I’d say… two years before we’ll be in a position to really start thinking about it. Because another two years, and then if we start trying there’s still probably another year’s income in there for her before she can’t work anymore, that’d be fine in terms of getting started comfortably. If something happened before then, I mean, we’re not destitute or anything, I mean, you know, we’d figure something out, but the plan is to sock away a few more years of income first.” It is long and full of meaningless rationalizations left over from Stage 1.
Now here comes the Stage 3 version:
Stage 3 Husband: “Look, she needs to work another… I’d say… two years before we’ll be in a truly comfortable position to go get pregnant, and that’s with the expectation that she’d still keep working right up until she physically couldn’t do it anymore. Personally I’d like to see her keep working—you know, set up a computer and desk in the delivery room—but hey, we can’t have it all! Look, there’re also people in mud huts who have like seventeen kids, so who the hell am I to think that I know how much money it takes to raise a kid. Whatever happens, happens.”
Did you see that?! The difference here is that in Stage 3, the notion of having a “plan” related to parenthood has pretty much unraveled. Planning has given way to a implicit plea to Lady Luck. Stage 3 couples have figured out that the notion one can ever be financially ready for a kid is a farce. There is acceptance here of the fact that you don’t plan for a kid the same way you plan a honeymoon, that there are forces of nature at play that really don’t give a hoot about your plans, your financial standing, or whatever. What’s coming will come, and it will cost what it costs, and that’s really not what it’s about anyway.
The length of time a couple spends in Stage 3 can be as brief as just a few minutes, but it is a potent stage nonetheless.
STAGE 4 - Dancing the Social Soft-Shoe
In Stage 4, a couple might say things like, “We’re not trying, but whenever it happens, it happens,” or, “We’re not trying, but we’re not not trying, either.” These are comments that sound good in social settings but mean nothing.
In other words, at Stage 4 couples turn into liars. (I think Alan Greenspan should probably seek to hire Stage 4 folks as staff writers.)
By the way, the lying gets worse, building to where the couple starts telling boldfaced lies as they enter Stage 5. Oh ye righteous single reader! Pass not ye judgment, for you shall do it too, one day, sure as God put little green apples on this here Earth! Cut them some slack.
I’ve watched people (usually single or married at Stage 1) get mad at their Phase 4 friends for not being more straight with them. What they don’t realize is, there is no “inner circle” of friends who get a different, more honest answer. “We’re not trying but we’re not not trying”is the more honest answer from a Stage 4 couple; people outside the circle get nothing.
And it should be this way. Nobody knows how long it will take for them to get pregnant. It would be naive for a woman to run around saying “We’re trying! We’re trying!” because three years and countless visits to the specialist(s) later, she’s going to have everyone and their mothers in her business, tsk-tsking behind her back and wondering if it’s her or if it’s him. Nobody needs that. You certainly won’t. So go easy, OK?
You know what they call people who don’t use protection during sex, don’t you? They call them, “parents.” When your friends start saying things that make no logical sense, read between the lines. Read: “parents.”
One more thing. Don’t push it. Stage 4 is a very sensitive time and can last a long while. It requires a delicate touch and lots of diplomacy. You thought you were good in Phase 1? Forget about it, that was just a warm-up. You’ll need to put your faith in the friendship and content yourself with a whole lot of unanswered questions about why this one asked for her Greek salad without Feta, or why that one, normally such a boozehound, is sipping Diet Coke tonight. It is what it is; the truth shall be revealed in due time.
STAGE 5 - Game On
Stage 5 is pretty big stuff. In this stage, the couple is physically prego, but they have no idea what that means. Nobody outside the two of them except maybe her mom knows anything. They’re waiting to pass the magic 3 Month mark before sharing the news. It’s a pretty nerve-wracking time.
This is when new parents start losing sleep. It’s a myth that you lose sleep starting when the baby shows up, it’s actually now, in Stage 5, during the very early stages of pregnancy that sleep goes out the window. I slept much better after our first daughter showed up than I did while I was waiting for her. A few things to expect when you get to Stage 5:
Women, a single EPT costs about $14-$16. I’m telling you this because you are going to go through a few. Like six. Because when that little line shows up, it will be too light, it will appear too slow, and it will be too close to the other one for you to trust it. You are going to look at the box and where it says “99% Accurate,” you are going to interpret that as “Hunh, it’s not perfect. I thought these things were, but not so much! Maybe I should take another one just to be sure.”
(My valedictorian wife needed six tests before she would admit that she might be pregnant. Then she called her doctor and scheduled blood work so she could be sure.)
Guys, the bottle is going to start looking real good for a while here. I’m talking Johnie Walker, not Enfamil. You are no longer in control of things, not now nor for the rest of your life, and the feeling is a little bit weird at first. Good luck, you’ll do fine once you get over the hump. The demotion is well worth it–and that’s exactly what it is: a demotion. Just don’t drink too much, you’ll need the money for diapers.
Conclusion
That’s them, the 5 Stages of Getting Pregnant.
From there you enter pregnancy, and that’s worth a blog unto itself. (In fact, I used to have one published.) One thing deserves an early mention, however: EVERYTHING YOU NEED FOR THE BABY IS VASTLY OVERPRICED. Shop online, get the cheap crib, get machine-washable everything, buy as few toys as possible. Resist The Sales Machine. Shun over engineered, gimmicky lifesavers. They will suck you in and rob you blind.
The only thing worth spending the money on is the Dutelier Glider. Everything else is more or less a scam. My wife and I had one great sales lady at a baby store when we were registering who, when my wife looked around and asked absently, “OK, what do I need… what do I need?” responded quite refreshingly, “Let’s be clear, Sweetheart, there’s nothing in here that you need. What do you want?”
That said… Enjoy.
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This post was written by Seiden on July 14, 2007